Hi Lord, a bit of hiatus because it was late before getting to this each night. And, I've felt more and more rotten since Tuesday. I don't think off-hand of anything else specifically that would bring me down. So, I need to keep this up to help center my soul and focus it within where your love is. This is my only source of sure love.  Love resides in all our souls, however, it is clouded and obscured by our Sin, and by Sin, I simply mean that which is in each of us that blocks the love within us. It is not a thing for judgement. It comes from our hurts and our ignorances. It becomes the decisions we make that we believe are in our best interests but is turned into a means of coping that undermines our love. So, I cannot be sure of love from anyone else. I may witness it in some and it may inspired me, but the only place from which I can count on as a constant source of love is from within myself because my sin is the only sin I can overcome and see past. Thank you Lord for creating me as a vessel, source and conduit of your love. May, through prayer and contemplating I may overcome my Sin and see, release and share your love from within me.

I want to work harder and be more diligent about my practices (8/23). I had days designated for thankfulness (Monday), happiness/suffering (Tuesday), emotions (Wednesday). Nothing for Thursday and today, my down days. Even so, I was not so successful Monday-Wednesday. My awareness was not good so I was not very mindful. I need to find a way to help me keep aware. It cannot be something that becomes routine to the point that I lose awareness. I will try and think about it. For tomorrow I will focus on judgements.

Thank you Lord for your love and may I continue and always drink and grow from that love which resides within me in my soul that you so created as a fountain of your love. Amen my sweet Lord, Amen.